I don't know what got over me...i cut again tonight but it feels like i didn't, it doesn't hurt at all...
I am scared of what i might do, my head just wont leave me alone, it keeps repeating over and over what i am...i don't know what is wrong with me.everyday fighting against myself, against my head...
i am really scared...
The other day my mom called and she asked me "what's wrong, what is the matter with you??"
and i answered, nothing is wrong with me....if she only knew i am a fucking suicidal freak, that i have to fight against my thoughts against the blade, if she knew that i am never going to marry a male and have kids with him be